Mark Twitter wars with Pioneer Woman, news crew visits house, mommy wears election headphones, newspaper hats: The week in review

What an odd week.

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The bison are back

Buffalo
Buffalo

I like buffalo.

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“running late, at quadruple homicide”

Once a year Now and again I clean off my computer’s desk top.

Gone now is the mug shot of the man accused of cutting eye holes in the portable toilets at the park. The toilets were parked next to each other. The peep holes lined up. So he sat in one, peering away, until a mother with a child noticed there were eyes staring at them through holes in the wall. She called the cops. He went to county. The mug shot creeped up my desktop until I deleted it yesterday with a *shudder* and a “Guh…”

I also found the below shot. I added labels.

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The bodies at the lake

I got out to western Oklahoma today.

Thought I’d share photos from an interesting assignment.

Details:

State forensic anthropologist Angela Berg works alongside local authorities to remove remains after
two cars were pulled from Foss Lake in western Oklahoma. It will take up
to a year to identify the remains, an official with the state medical
examiner’s office said. But family members who believed their relatives
had been found arrived at the scene and gave DNA samples via cheek swabs. Mysteries family members hope will be solved include three people last seen in the area in April ’69, cases possibly tied to the ’52 Chevy. Sayre teens missing since ’70 may have been found in the Camaro. Below are a woman who believes her grandfather’s remains were found. And, the trooper who found the bodies while testing new sonar equipment. Trooper George Hoyle was using the instruction manual the day the imaging technology hit on the ’52 Chevy about 50 feet out in 12 feet of water.

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If you like reading about my adventures exploring the state of Oklahoma, hit up the category The Oklahoma Diaries. If you like taking iPhone pics, you might try iPhone photography, ie, iPhoneography.

4 stops you won’t find on the Oklahoma City segway tour

For a year and a half, I’ve been getting to know my new city a disaster at a time.

Here are four stops you’re not going to find on any Oklahoma City segway tour.

And I’ll spare you the details!

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I’ve learned that when Mark asks, “What’d you do today?” he actually doesn’t want to know. That’s why reporters talk reporter talk with other reporters in our own special little reporter language.

It’s the same at places like cop shops, hospital break rooms, fire departments and the morgue.

I have a good friend from my last outlet. We give each other a ring now and again to talk industry talk. He covered Sandy Hook when Eli was in the hospital. That’s why I really tried to hold it together when he called to congratulate Mark and I, having spotted on Twitter that I was out on maternity leave. I could tell he was looking for some good news, excited to talk about a new kid. Eli is great news — but we were in the hospital and Eli had a deadly disease…so….yeah. My friend was positive. He seemed to recall a friend of his with CF. The friend went somewhere Ivy for college, joined a jazz band and also became a wildly successful business person. He assured me he did more in just his early years than most people do in a lifetime. The CF didn’t stop him.

Sandy Hook is almost too terrible to believe. My friend is from the town. His daughter goes to school two miles from where the massacre happened. In fact, as the media swarmed, he walked inside a restaurant to interview the locals.

“Why don’t you just go home?” the woman asked him.

“I am home.” he said.

Best comeback ever.

National media get so annoying when disaster strikes your hometown. I learned this first hand, when they were given special celeb tours while we were getting kicked off of public streets in Moore, while trying to gather news for our community after a tornado struck our community.

Even so, I mixed it up with a national TV producer while sitting outside of Moore City Hall. I had been chasing the medical examiner spokeswoman. I was exhausted. Sat down on a bench. Sighed a sigh to end all sighs.

We started chatting, recognizing we were both media. Instantly, we discovered the other was a smart ass. An amiable smart ass!

“Ugh, you national media, bragging about your exclusives! It’s too much!”

“Actually,” he said conspiratorially, referencing a special tour of the hardest-hit disaster zone, “I’m the one who set that up.”

All he had to do was name drop the famous anchor and say what the famous anchor wanted.

“Yeah. Figures.”

He was just doing his job. Just like I was doing mine. The big guys have the star power. It’s just how it is.

“Today, though. What’s the story?”

He was looking for the next story.

“The story? It’s the people,” I said.

I told him about the Oklahoma standard. It’s the get-up-and-go people have after disasters here. They pick up, and they help their neighbors. Disasters happen here again and again — wildfires, tornadoes.

Then there’s the 1995 bombing.

A lot of people I work with here covered it. They saw terrible things. One hundred sixty eight violent deaths, the work of a terrorist’s bomb. And the whole city picked itself backed up again. The city moved forward, its people helping one another along the way. The bombing left a scar that has been turned into a beautiful memorial downtown. It’s a shared experience that binds the people here together.

The bombing: It's carried in the hearts of the OKC people....and on the segway tour.
The bombing: It’s carried in the hearts of the OKC people.

The national producer wasn’t too interested in my post-tornado Oklahoma standard pitch.

He waved it off.

“How about the dead animals at the farm down the road?” I offered.

That he could do.

We went our separate ways.

I caught the medical examiner’s office spokeswoman in the parking lot of city hall for the latest update on the number of dead at the morgue.

At my office, we spent weeks find out out who these people were before their lives were snuffed out by the monster.

So, no, I don’t go home and divulge the details of my day over the dinner table or to my family members or friends.

You really don’t want to know what mommy was up to today, children!

That’s OK. A little mystery can’t hurt.

I go home and I hug my little people tight. Every day, a new story, a new reminder: Life can change in a moment.

Moore
Moore

Baby powers: activate!

Eli must have activated some secret baby powers recently.

secret baby powers....
secret baby powers….

Before I get to that, I have to note that my husband is on a play date with his friends. He is playing PS3 football online with a friend in Chicago. In the mean time, Mark, his Chicago friend Bryan and St. Louis friend Steve are on a Google Hangout (basically, video conference call with multiple people). The computer is propped up on a tall lamp. I note this only to say: Boys…oi. Don’t get it.

nope, don't get it
nope, don’t get it

Any way, back to Eli’s baby powers.

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Strange days

Buddies

Juliana again. June 4, 2013.

I had a good day. Then a strange day. Now it’s back to being a good day.

Good day-I heard a lot of feedback from readers on my piece I wrote for The Oklahoman on cystic fibrosis and on Eli and his first five months of life. A couple of my co-workers mentioned it, too.

It seems like it hit home for some people, or they somehow related to it, so, I was happy about that.

I had a good brunch, family brunch, with my in-laws and Laila and Eli and Mark.

I went to work.

My task was to figure out who the people are who are still missing from these storms that hit Oklahoma City and the metro area on Friday.

I was by a river, the Deep Fork River, with people who all had ties to Guatemala.

It was a volunteer search party. They were caked in red mud. They had machetes, shovels, rakes. They were taking a break by the highway.

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The monster

My newspaper called the EF5 tornado that struck the state Monday a monster.

This is accurate.

The monster took 24 souls.

It sucked an infant and a 4-year-old, sisters, out of their mother’s arms. It crushed two elementary schools, claiming the lives of seven children inside of one of them. A mommy and baby died hiding in the freezer at 7-11.

This photo illustration edited in Picframe and Afterlight on iPhone. May 20, 2013 Oklahoma tornado.
This photo illustration edited in Picframe and Afterlight on iPhone. May 20, 2013 Oklahoma tornado.

The violent loss of life is awful. What makes this so much worse is that this tornado took so many children from their parents, even as everyone did everything that they could to hide the children and keep them safe from the storm, it seems.

The storm was the stuff of nightmares.

That’s why even though I’m exhausted, I’m *trying hard* not to complain. My babies are safe. My house is a wreck and the refridgerator is bare. At least I’ve got a roof over my head. Thousands of people in the south Oklahoma City area don’t even have a home to mess up anymore.

I’m trying to rally.

I spent all week at disaster scenes and in a newsroom and other places people don’t typically go to just hang out.

Believe it or not, I finished my piece on Eli on Tuesday.

That was an ordeal in and of itself.

To back up – I had the piece about 90 percent complete for most of the week before my deadline.

There was one more call I needed to make.

I met Andrea Cochran at our Great Strides event earlier this month. She’s 27 and has CF.

Andrea Cochran had over 100 supporters with her. She is in her 20s and lives with CF.
Andrea Cochran had over 100 supporters with her. She is in her 20s and lives with CF.

I spoke to her because the large number of people surrounding her, supporting her, caught my eye.

First, I talked to some of her friends.

I asked about her. Her age, the basics.

Then I asked “Is she able to work?”

It was the first thing I thought of.

It’s kind of a rude question.

She couldn’t work, her friends said.

This upset me. We started our walk. I started to think of Eli, growing up, getting sicker, not being able to work at the time of his life he is supposed to be healthy, strong, like most of the rest of us.

I wanted to cry.

Great Strides in OKC
Great Strides in OKC

After the walk, I tracked down Andrea.

She had such a big smile on her face, a glow about her. It was freezing cold and windy. I explained that I was a mom of a baby with CF and a reporter and – actually, she was the first adult with CF I’d ever talked to. I wondered if I could get her cell and maybe talk to her about her life later. Kind of for the piece but also because I’d like to get to know more older people with the disease.

We parted ways. My family went home.

May 4. The day of the Great Strides fundraising event.

That was the entry in my Oklahoman piece that remained blank.

The monster visited the state on Monday, May 20, but the carnage from the tornado outbreak started the day before.

This weather was the story — but just case – just in case we needed something for the upcoming Memorial Day weekend — hey, it was a long weekend — I still needed to get my piece done. This is to allow others to work on it before its original run date: Sunday, May 26.

I tried really hard to get out of it.

I ran to the Shawnee area Sunday with a photographer as soon as I heard a trailer park there had been flattened.

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On Monday, when not hiding in a closet Tweeting the monster, I made my way to the morgue, just to see what I could see.

The kids were in bed. I needed to somehow help figure this thing out.

You would think this is not normal behavior. But it is for a reporter. Reporters want to help break down devastating events when they occur.

I wanted to work on the tornado, not the piece about my son, I told my editor. I tried to get my deadline for the CF piece pushed back.

Nope. It had to be done.

I was at the morgue.

There I met a toxicologist who was a surprisingly good listener for the line of work he was in.

I had my lap top open in the lobby of the medical examiner’s office. This turned out to be great place to get a little work done.

I asked him what brought him there tonight.

He had no real business being there, he was just there to support his fellow staff members. They were going to be working through the night. It was his day off and he wanted to make himself useful, he said.

I told him I knew the feeling.

I’m writing a piece about my son, I told him. I’m hung up. Can’t finish it.

“This is really hard,” I said to my new therapist at the morgue.

“Those are the best to read,” he said. “The ones that are the hardest to write.”

You know I really kind of liked my new morgue BFF.

We talked about media.

We talked about CF. He told me about a friend who has a child with the disease – a child doing a really well.

We talked about natural disasters like this that tend to hit Oklahoma. Where he was during the last couple – May 3, 1999, which is a date everyone knows around here. That tornado in the same area killed over 40.

My new friend got back up. Firemen had arrived. They were wearing blue medical gloves. He needed to see what they needed.

I had written a basic story on the event and on Andrea as I sat at the morgue seeing what I could see, but I just couldn’t finish the May 4 post. I couldn’t really get it straight what I wanted to say.

It was writer’s block like I’ve never had before.

The morgue had no official news to release so I went back home.

Even given the fact that, yes, I am a reporter, and yes, I want a piece of any huge story that hits my area — It’s just not like me to try to get out of something I’ve promised so many people, frankly. I was so gung-ho when I got the assignment to let people know about my son, about facing a life that isn’t the life you thought you’d get.

Then all the sudden, I quit trying to finish it.

It was like I’d been training for months for the race of a lifetime. I sprinted the race then got to the last 50 yards and just started to walk.

The piece was due the next day. It wasn’t done.

I wanted to call Andrea before my shift, which starts in the afternoon on Tuesdays.

I work at 1 p.m. I called her at noon.

You know, I’m glad I did.

I told Andrea it was hard for me to call. I know I’d love to talk a lot more – I just wasn’t sure that I could now. It’s my son, I said. I have a hard time thinking about him getting sick.

She totally understood. However, we did get to talking a bit.

She’s a sweetheart. Andrea also has great perspective on her own medical care, which is really valuable. I got to know her just a little bit, confirmed the basic facts I’d gotten from her friends the day of the race, and said I’d call again.

I went into work.

I sat down to talk to my editor about the piece, my hang ups, my unusual field trips.

I didn’t even know what to say going into the meeting.

I decided I was going to ask — no, beg — for more time.

Instead, I confessed:

I can’t stand thinking about the future when it comes to my son.

I can’t stand it.

I told her that I agreed to do the piece thinking I could handle it since I’d been writing all along. I hadn’t realized how emotional it would be, how it would put my mind through the ringer to learn things I didn’t want to learn, face things I didn’t want to face. To face Eli’s future.

I confessed something I hadn’t even realized was true until I blurted it out: I’d been hiding at disaster scenes to avoid my own life.

The future was my monster. The monster from my nightmares, the monster waiting to take my son away.

It was easier for me to cover other peoples’ disasters than to look ahead, into the unknown, into Eli’s future.

And yet, CF is so different in everybody. And medicine is advancing so fast. I know his life will be happy, good. Andrea’s life seemed happy and good. She’s so strong, even though she faces major challenges – she had to have open heart surgery last year. That’s because a catheter near her heart – much like the one Eli had for his medical procedures- developed a blood clot.

Still, she’s married. She has a dog, June Bug, and a ton of love and support in her life. Her spirit is so strong. I loved learning all that. But I hated that she was sick. Too sick to work. This wasn’t fair.

I hate that Eli has this disease.

I thought I was ready to face it all.

I’m not.

I still made the call, I told my editor.

I have every detail I need.

And I will finish it.

I needed the deadline to make the call.

After I spoke to Andrea, after I talked to my editor, I finished the last post in less than 20 minutes.

I said everything I wanted to say about what we had experienced, what we had learned so far.

The words just flowed. I knew exactly what I wanted to express.

Of course, the piece was held.

There is no room in the newspaper right now for an long piece about my family’s experience. This is the worst natural disaster since ’99.

In a few weeks, or maybe even sooner, the time will be right.

Maybe people around here need a story like this.

The monster took so many children, so many homes.

Each person left standing in the rubble got a new life. Each person in the new life is grieving for the old life, is grieving for what was supposed to be, then, in an instant, wasn’t.

Life is like that. Hard.

We are all pushing forward, together, stronger for the things we’ve had to endure.
darlin who lost her home May 19 near Shawnee, OK

No, citizen, you can’t do this job

As I mentioned, I’ve been toiling away at work on a piece based on this blog.

I can’t help but notice I’m prone to be a little verbose.

Mommy uses many words.
Mommy uses many words.

Maybe I should have used fewer words to get my points across. That would have made my life easier now!

The piece for The Oklahoman is a major challenge. I’m taking five of the most intense, confusing, strange and wonderful months of my life and trying to boil it down to a story that can be consumed by the masses in one sitting. One sitting that isn’t boring. My bla bla bla can’t weigh down the story. What is the story? What do I leave in? What do I leave out? What is the essence of each post? Does it show change? Move something forward chronologically? If not, to the cutting room floor those words go.

Besides the writing there is much to consider. Five teams of people — my editors, layout for print, our copy desk, video/audio folks and the digital desk — will be working with me at some point on my project. There are deadlines within deadlines. On the blog, I tell my story in words, but also pictures, video and sound. Well that needs to be preened and picked over and placed somewhere for these other teams of people to use. Getting the right elements into the right hands–on the double– is up to me. If I fail to meet even one deadline then I fail to give someone the tools this person needs to do a bang-up job.

I can’t help but notice I’m an anal- retentive control freak regarding this story.

Tiffany, friend, capable woman, ran for my work’s aptly named “In the lede” team for Eli in the Color Me Rad CF fundraiser last weekend. She’s on our digital desk and is helping to oversee this story’s online presentation and social media promotion.

She sat down with me and said we can do a lot to make it appealing online- a timeline integrated with audio, video and pictures, and even stuff like a rattle, baby blocks.

I cut her off at baby blocks.

“Oh hell to the no keep the cutesy shit out of this story presentation. I started writing because I thought my son might die. I keep writing because he has a deadly disease. Yes, fine, my own words can get a little bouncy and I admit to being kind of like a 16 year old drawing hearts and stars all over a notebook as I get lost in my own head. Except I’m old. My notebook has been replaced with a lap top and an iPhone and the story is my kid’s life with a chronic disease – but really, his life, our lives. No cutesy shit.”

I work so well together with others.

Tiffany got my verbal memo and we worked out a schedule and a plan for moving forward. I like working with her, let it be known!

It’s cool to bring other people in on this deal to do things I just couldn’t accomplish on my own. Tiffany wields our social media and online tools and she’s good at it. She’s 10 years younger than me. I’m going to try hard not to hover, however, this one’s personal and I’m going to be rather involved. You’ve been warned, poor co-worker! I’ll buy you a beer later…

I’m on a deadline. Tuesday.

I’m about 90 percent finished on words …I’m still panicking here. This is overwhelming. Deadlines, deadlines, those deadlines.

I was talking about all of this with my editor a few days ago.

The whole thing overwhelmed me, I said. I was getting bogged down in detail. This was really hard.

“That’s why not just anyone can do our job,” she said.

“Seriously,” I answered. “Citizen journalism my ass.”

She suggested I cut it off at May 5, Eli’s 5-month birthday.

That suggestion really helped.

It was what I needed to keep going.

The thing is 190 inches as it stands. That’s newspaper talk for really @#$%#$^% long.

Too long.

Unless it reads fast.

Then it’s just the length it needs to be.

I don’t know.

I need another set of eyes.

I’m going to shape this beast up and then we’re going to bang it around come Monday.

My story needs presented in a way that won’t scare readers away with big boring blocks of gray. It needs to be inviting and cohesive across multiple platforms. It’s good to work with capable people. I’m excited to see what we can come up with ,together. This public debut makes me nervous. It’s my story’s quinceanera. We’re growing up, entering the official media world. Where’s my ball gown.

Well I’m getting wordy again.

Better cut myself off before I get out of hand.

Mean streets

Eli is pretty street.

Maybe that’s because he went with me, in utero, to, I don’t know, a dozen or more homicide scenes. We rode together in a police squad car. Took a trip to county jail. We attended a shoot-out together.

I told you this wasn’t a parenting advice blog.

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